Clark is my meditation
While I was sitting in the dimly lit nursery this evening rocking Clark to sleep, I realized that spending time with him is closest I’ve ever been to meditation. I’ve tried meditating many times but I’m not very good at quieting my brain. When I’m with Clark, however, I’m committed to being present in a way that I’m not for anything else. It’s not just at bedtime when I have this sweet little guy curled up against me… I experience this even when we’re outside. I watch him as he picks up pine cones or sifts through the dirt. I look around the neighborhood and just enjoy being outside watching him interact with the world. While it’s clearly not calm and meditative all the time, it is a very nice gift to have these moments in my day.
June 1st, 2009 at 10:18 am
It is an interesting point, pre-baby we all had near total freedom, with the option of doing any entertaining thing we wanted.
Whereas raising a kid has involved quite a bit of what before I would have classified as “wasted time”, but now describe as “just being”.
And, to be honest, I’m not 100% comfortable with it yet, but it is definitely calm and relaxing when I allow it to be.